forming a Death and Dying Support Group! 2-20-26

Hello all. Well, it's THAT time of year when the slow period get even slower! Get out your gratitude lists and focus on creative activities and things that uplift and support you 'cause baby if your a mature m4m masseur (one among thousands in NYC work slows down tremendously. My theory is that it's due to all the religious shit going down (starting with Chinese New Year, Ramadan, Easter, etc.) and men feel guilty, shamed or the urge to be celibate--give up sex for lent--? whatever). Is that a kind of Purge?

Strangely I noticed (on the Rent Masseur site) are there only like 10 of "us" in Paris--I can only figure that due to its expense and sense of competition and ageism, that NYC again wins as the garbage heap of male whores in the entire global market. (Please take my sarcasm with a grain of salt y'all :)))). But there is truth in my words. By the name why does my last name rhyme with whore? Please don't call me Steve Whore--or Steve Ho. I like that by the way! : ) LOL.

My theory is that Trump created an occupation in Minneapolis because THAT was the birth of the BLACK LIVES MATTER movement? George Floyd, etc. I'm so right I know. Of course it only makes sense!

Some so-called protege called me from RM and wanted info about me. Of course he wasn't interested in an free exchange-who cares? Blocked it.

Saw the most beautiful man at the Chinatown Y last night. A short-ish Japanese American with the most stunning tatoos (and one pierced nipple) and so in shape, ripped, hot legs, tan...YOU GO!Oow La La! His tatoos were covering 90% of his body, the colors were like a living, rich, deep painting of flowers and stars. Of course the big (closeted?) Jew had to jump in usurp the conversation. Who cares I was into getting into the Sauna anyway. Interesting that in the good old days there may have been an innuendo of a pick-up or a cruise. Those days are gone forever.

All about the phone bitches--all about the phone now. But one cute dude was remarking on my "Five Fingers" shoes during my work-out. I have to stop elliptical and get back to walking fast on treadmill as there is a new back pain starting.

Today I want to call dentist and finish and send in two rental applications. Maybe pull in new stems from Tim for my song Daydream. (Stems are musical/sound waveforms that make up the mix of a song. I wonder why I'm always alone doing this stuff...well, not really now that I've met Tim. He gives such great advise.

I want a beer now : ).It's way too early 3:41 in the afternoon. Fuck it!...

So blah blah blah. I was thinking about forming a death and dying group for any and all interested males (females/trans too??? not sure). And NO you do NOT have to be dying to participate. It could also been an online meeting! Then I could reach out to a global audience of interested parties but I'd rather keep it closed to queer men, bi and down lows anyway. Just to keep it simple.

So in case you didn't know this blog is a kind of diary. And it contains a lot of details. Graphic, R-rated too!

I'm horny today (of course) sadly think I will miss acupuncture (she left a needle in my ankle last week. WTF?

So this guy I'm kind of interested in just stopped texting me. That's weird. I'd like to get to know him more and that hardly ever happens. We'll see...

I'm feeling a bit isolated today. I could release myself: Then take a nap but I'l like to 1) call dentist and 2) finish both rental applications! Repeating myself. Oh well..

If you have any thoughts on the D&D group, I'd love to hear them! See next blog entry for more info on that!