Gorging on Epstein documentaries. His evil rivals Trumps. Further on the D&D Group (Death and dying). Once you start putting too much energy in groups and social media shit, it becomes a kind of vampire force sucking your energy. I could spend all day online Tic Toc, reading news, youtube but there's a point where I feel like I'm overdosing and have to stop stop stop. Some further D&D topics to explore. (There's also a Death Cafe next thurs in the Waldman Living room...info :

Hello all. Well, it's THAT time of year when the slow period get even slower! Get out your gratitude lists and focus on creative activities and things that uplift and support you 'cause baby if your a mature m4m masseur (one among thousands in NYC work slows down tremendously. My theory is that it's due to all the religious shit going down (starting with Chinese New Year, Ramadan, Easter, etc.) and men feel guilty, shamed or the urge to be celibate--give up sex for lent--? wh

FROM HELLO WRITER (Substack blog) by Linda Caroll Using AI means we don’t need to pick the words, or ask which parts belong and which don’t. We don’t need to determine which parts are rambling and which is the best order for the words to go in and then edit three or fifteen times. But it doesn’t just affect ability to write. If it did, that would be a non-issue because let’s be honest. Most people using AI struggle to write in the first place and if there was no AI, many of t

Whore-a-scope from Chicago Tribune... Comfort grows when truths breathe in safety. The nurturing Moon unites with intense Pluto in your 8th House of Intimacy, encouraging honest talks about deep issues. Me: Who with? Maybe Mr. P? Why do queer relationships always begin from a sexual place? Maybe that a state of intuitive/sacral chakra intelligence. ! And straights should learn from us : ) LOL. You might review a shared account or open up about a sensitive worry with a loved

Cancer June 21 – July 22 Being respected could earn you trust and real options going forward. Your 10th House of Career and Status gains focus as authoritative Saturn arrives there. Perhaps people will finally notice that your caring nature consistently leads through reliability. Still, if a supervisor or elder raises the bar, ask for written priorities and set fair deadlines, because a clearly defined scope protects your reputation and home rhythm. Embrace the opportunity to

https://poetsbridge.org/Saintorr Click link above for my latest sharing of poetry to The Bridge: courtesy of Brooklyn Poets. I'm grateful for a friend reading my my own works and reminding me of this beauty I have created. Sometimes, we can forget! Snow and being unable to bike (through this mess), not to mention NO CLIENTS gives me a break, time to kick back and relax, reflect, organize and do the shit: Writing. Writing is hard work anyway you look at it. I'm currently tryin

Niki Minaj: wow how stupid, ignorant and hypocritical can one person be? I've always thought she kinda looks very inbred and semi-plastic. Anything dealing with stars I tend to stay away from but reflecting on Toni Morrison's statement re: goodness (that it cannot be seduced) I ponder: What would you do (I do?) if a billionaire demon (devil) offered you a million just to welcome you into his circle and praise you and have selfies taken with you? Would you let go of all your b

1-27-26 Was very fortunate to have a repeat client--thank you P--yesterday! Very hot. And my returnee client from pre-COVID days. Whew. That truly headed toward a bottom scene. His sacral chakra energy is sooooo damn strong and hot. Must be the Italian in him! Mangia! Thank you God of M4M massage! LOL. Was fortunate to have acquired Final Cut Pro, Traktor 4 Pro (DJ mixing program) and Photoshop. Now I can again manipulate my own images.  Was thinking I need to set down and wr

https://poetsbridge.org/Saintorr Am very emotional, sad, fragile continuing to watch the events play out in Minneapolis. I used to live in St. Paul and have a very dear friend living there at present. To say ICE needs to leave, get a grip, try out new tactics, or BE BANNED...these are all understatements. Again Trump is accusing the fallen, the victims. This is tyranny and fascism at it's very worst. Innocent people--the guy killed this time was a nurse who worked with vetera

I feel more pure (if possible LOL). Less bloated? More svelt (is that just in my head?). Right away I'm thinking of when I go back to it (Friday tastings at Astor Place--yum). Sleeping Beauty here, playing with cirrhosis of the liver. (Not funny). But the Japanese Shozu (from Sweet Potatoes) is DO damn good! Also not cheap at $30 bucks a bottle!!!!!!! Oye...one day at a time. I may be having two clients today (JOY)...we shall see... time for a nap... ; ). I really shouldn't b

It seems that after the storm (the slow period) the sun again reappears although it's colder than a witches t**!. Thank you repeat client "B" for yesterday. Such a joy to work on you and to have that trust between us. So many things I fantasize about: best to keep it all about the massage though LOL. You are my client. Period. Also was very happy to receive an inquiry from a potential client visiting from another city. Great body! Hope he sets something up. We aim to please.

and yet I do. Moody Cancer here. Lest I forget--the foundation of it all: I'm GRATEFUL for my HEALTH today! : ).

Again I find myself super aware of my drinking habits and questioning them. And the stories I hear of how others have ruined their lives through too much booze constantly serve as a cautious reminder to me to always monitor my intake. Interesting that I have had my good times with wine (a few bottles of red a week for an unspecified number of weeks and years) when finally a therapist finally pointed out that the wine had become my best friend.  I love the buzz of that first s

First let me say--I'm sad I don't have any clients today--on the Great One's Birthday--you'd think SOMEONE would have the day off and want a fabulous massage. It's too cold. There's too many of us offering massages (or fake massages with porn bodies). So I'm having a beer: Yeah I know it's kinda early for that but I'll probably have two. I have already jerked off. I had a dopamine crave: I got my fix myself...mesmerized by porn! And didn't have to pay for it: well, only in t

Please come for a massage: late night special rates NOW, i.e., from 10 PM to 12 Midnight I will work on you for 1 hour (in-call). What the hell are you waiting for?

When you are not on your phone or jerking off LOL. Dancer from the Dance: Underworld by Don DeLillo This is another quote from T.M. She said she did not think much of modern fiction writers who reference their own lives instead of inventing new material, and she used to tell her creative writing students, "I don't want to hear about your little life, OK?" On this I heartily disagree as one of my favorite quotes is by Gide "Out of yourself--create." If I take all my experience

1-4-26 I heartily affirm that my powers of resilience are stronger in me: than my tendencies toward self-drama, self-immolation and suicidal ideation. Amen. "We die. That may be the meaning of life. But we do language. That may be the measure of our lives." Toni Morrison Double amen!

I think I felt in a small way that I got my groove back today when I sat down and I wrote for just like an hour: then proceeded to begin to assemble my final collection of short stories for Digital Kindle (suddenly their app is very user friendly). I had secretly hoped that I would create a buzz on Substack. Which I'm seeing is just another doomed social media whore feeding frenzy site: Then I felt weird, like why do I even bother with this? Because--I answer myself, people n