Da River of Denial Runs Deep 7-10-26

This is the copy of BEST NUDE MASSAGE (along with a photo of his tits and ass with the phone in the selfie blocking his face)...from a recent ad I saw float by on the Rentmasseur site

***BEST NUDE MASSAGE IN TOWN***

I am a healer first. If ur just looking for ur routine ****** please do not contact me.

Wait, what? I thought "FUCK" was spelled with four letters. Why da biatch usin' SIX? This is a perfect of example of how fucked up most of these boys are on Rentmasseur...cheap sluts exhibiting their (lost) selves and their utterly mediocre services...

It doesn't make me ashamed of advertising alongside of them on the RM site but it just goes to show who I am in the company of. OK so I'm thinking of something positive to say here. Umm. Well, there is a huge selection of "rubbing flavors" to choose from, I will say that. You just can't beat the unending variety of what's available now, can you?

"Dees here niggah-ho's got about as much class as the rat turds outside in my backyard door. You know the ones, those tiny, brown, toxic raisins surrounding the garbage and recycling bins." IMHO, this is the ghetto version who and what the essence of this aspect of humanity is.

But again, God Bless this Mess! Gosh, no wonder M4M workers can't or don't want to talk about their job~

But it is what it is. I think it starts with the ambiguous descriptor "Rentmasseur."

A bit of a joke, and yet a remarkable portal that does bring in the occasional client. That's why I've been on there for years. I truly hate the fact that they peddle nude photos of masseurs too (available for viewing by subscription price only.) I have contacted they numerous times suggesting that they pay the masseurs everytime a user views their nude pix (some of them don't have nude pix too).

I believe the denial and the arrogance comes from a deep sense of internalized homophobia along with the latent shame (and machismo mask--especially in some black and Latin M4M bodyworkers). I've always found it interesting that some not-so-ambiguous-ethnic-types have such a difficult time with the gay thing that it rivals even hard-core, Neo-NAZIS, and (paranoid) straight, White supremacist types. Perhaps it's because the majority of Rentmasseur advertisers are indeed selling themselves when they try so, so hard to convince themselves and the world that that is NOT what they are doing! Oh well. Bless us all...

And again hear the echo of my question ring throughout the universe "Isn't there enough for everyone?"

There's also the whole question of "Are we selling ourselves short when we sell ourselves? i.e., are we blunting all the finer aspects, the unseen possibilities of our unique and beautiful selves when we sell Release? I've had so much judgements through the years, not only from women (who simply don't get it) but from my own queer and gay Brethren.

I think owning your own queer/bi-ness is the first aspect of mastering yourself. Everything else comes from that. It's also that being bi in NYC has always been such a slippery slope. This town insist that people choose sides. Then there's the whole question of "Are bis non-binary?" Oye. I'm going back to bed.