Thank you J! Sober revelations 8-27-24

Thank you so much repeat client "J!" I made almost as much in our session as I do working 3 days a week doing elder care!

My revelations about being sober continue. Today is day 22 of no booze. I'm so proud of myself. Yesterday I reflected that perhaps my drinking had (has) become a kind of surrogate activity for making music. I see now that drinking daily inhibits creativity (this is how I work). But I do want to go back to drinking just not every day. When one drinks--at least me--one does little else. I do like the buzz but I don't like how doing it continuously saps my energy; you could say "hijacks" the better parts of me! Not sure if I'd go that far.

I've started "hanging" (from a bar). Not sure if this is just another one of those internet fitness fads or whether it really will provide me with benefits.

Stomp stomp stomp--the water buffalo walks her walk upstairs. Jesus I hate living below fat ladies...

Young white boy bitches on cell phones--so beautiful...so dead...ah those beautiful days (days gone by) when men LOOKED at each other in the street and checked each other out. Technology is an armor, a wall, a shield we hide behind and it's so friggin' stupid--all it does is avoid. I don't think we get closer to people, I think it separates us. But then I'm a body-touching-dopamine junkie : ).

The session with J was wonderful. I love his energy--kinda reminded me of a sexy version of my dad...ha ha...

Feeling very restless...going to hang and then watch some wasteful movies...why I wonder am I so attracted to and fascinated by evil...